~perawan cinta~

Last 2 days i had made a confession to HIM... actually 2 confessions ..

I would say it as "Berani Mati" came out from me.

He saiko me to tell him honestly whether he read my mind correctly.

It was all about my feelings..

My confessions;
SAYA SEDANG SUKA DIA
SAYA PERNAH SUKA AWAK 


he realised that i was hiding something.. 
am i so obviousss????


"kita boleh tipu orang lain, tapi kita tak boleh tipu diri sendiri"


in this case, saya tak boleh tipu orang lain..??..demmmmm


After that long conversation wif him tru FB... 
i felt sooooo relief coz i already knew what he felt for me
but in other way, i'm idiot coz actually i'm not in his list... what a shame.. pity me kan??


i'm not too sad coz him already a history to me. 

What made me sad..  part yang SAYA SEDANG SUKA DIA..
sebab DIA sedang suka orang lain.. tragis gila..
i should not interfere their relationship kan??
saya patut rasa bahagia bila mereka bahagia kan??


Thanks to him coz advise me although i insist to tell him at first..
we promise to be like adik n abang...  


I wanna b strong .. i don't wanna listen to those sad songs anymore.. i put apart my Rossa's from my CD player which i remained inside for about 2 weeks. No more "Hati Yang Kau Sakiti" k. BUt still my hand grabbed Rossa's..The old one.. semua lagu bestt..
My ears caught this beautiful song... PERAWAN CINTA..  Song n lyric by mElly Goeslow. It suits my emotion right now..


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Tadi saya menangis lagi bila buat keputusan macam orang dewasa..
bodoh kan saya..
cakaplah saya bodoh..
sebab saya bodoh...